||[Jun. 25th, 2005|04:16 pm]
hey darkness, my old friend
i've come to visit you again...
so i guess this live juornal has many different kinds of entries. ones that tell about "my day", or plans for the week. some are to tell everyone the latest news, weather it be a new love, or and event. some are about feelings. happiness. sadness. feeling loved, or feeling alone.
this is an entry of all those types.
1) yesterday was great....
-my little brother and sister, and grandmother went to New York to visit my aunt
-i went to a japanese resteraunt with my parents
- i went to Barnes and Noble, and bought some interesting books about the holocaust.(i wanna know everything about it) and a photography book.
2) in 5 days, it's my birthday! i'm gonna be 17, and would greatly apreciate calls and such on this special day.:)
3) feelings. well, here's something to think about. what do you do when poeple say "look on the brightside", when there is no brightside? when you can't find happiness anywhere. like it's hiding in the black smoke of rejection, mistakes, hurt, and failure.
In the love department. i realized something that i need to act upon.
a year ago, this day, i left my love. my one true love. since then, i've tried to like other guys, falling into and immature "love" and trying to hide from reality. i realized i will never get over him. i can love another, but never the way i loved him. you know who you are. if you're reading this. please. give me one last chance. i need you.