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(no subject) [Jul. 16th, 2005|09:21 pm]
drunkxdesire
[mood |tiredtired]
[music |tv]

hey i havn't been writing a lot latley because i have a new livejournal account. it's : lifesxlostxlove .

i hope you all like it.


<3Sofia
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(no subject) [Jun. 25th, 2005|04:16 pm]
drunkxdesire
[mood |hungryhungry]
[music |walking shade]

hey darkness, my old friend
i've come to visit you again...


so i guess this live juornal has many different kinds of entries. ones that tell about "my day", or plans for the week. some are to tell everyone the latest news, weather it be a new love, or and event. some are about feelings. happiness. sadness. feeling loved, or feeling alone.

this is an entry of all those types.

1) yesterday was great....

-my little brother and sister, and grandmother went to New York to visit my aunt
-i went to a japanese resteraunt with my parents
- i went to Barnes and Noble, and bought some interesting books about the holocaust.(i wanna know everything about it) and a photography book.

2) in 5 days, it's my birthday! i'm gonna be 17, and would greatly apreciate calls and such on this special day.:)

3) feelings. well, here's something to think about. what do you do when poeple say "look on the brightside", when there is no brightside? when you can't find happiness anywhere. like it's hiding in the black smoke of rejection, mistakes, hurt, and failure.
In the love department. i realized something that i need to act upon.
a year ago, this day, i left my love. my one true love. since then, i've tried to like other guys, falling into and immature "love" and trying to hide from reality. i realized i will never get over him. i can love another, but never the way i loved him. you know who you are. if you're reading this. please. give me one last chance. i need you.
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(no subject) [Jun. 13th, 2005|12:24 pm]
drunkxdesire
[mood |hothot]
[music |heat flowing through my veins]

IT IS SO FUCKING HOT!!!!!

 

ok, so i'm here at school in MCAS class, and i'm bored out of my mind. i am so hot, sometimes it's hard to breathe. i totally should have worn a tube top and shorts today or somethin, cuz i am so FREAKIN HOT!. ok, now that i got that out of my system, i would very much like to be in November now, i love that month. it's when fall turns to winter and people cuddle, and dress in layers. it's the comfy month. so on a diff. note, i feel much happier right now. i feel like a wheight has ben lifted off my shoulders and i can just relax. i don't have to solve everything at once, so i'm just taking it one day at a time. just living life one day at a time. so yeah, i should get goin now, cuz i'm like still in school, and u kno how that is...but i wana leave you all with this message. no matter how emo i can get, and how much i can complain, or not wanna participate, i'm still so grateful for what all you guys have done for me. all u friends out there, have helped me so much in ways you'll never know. thank you.

 

 

                                                                               Love always,

                                                                                    Sofia A.

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A letter.... [Jun. 12th, 2005|10:24 pm]
drunkxdesire
Dear __________, I've got a letter I would like to send.
It's lacking strings of words with punctuation at the end.
Should I trust this dialect
To convey the right effect?

Dear _______, I've got some things I'd like to set in pen
I would have used a pencil, but leads just not permanent.
Should I trust my printer's ink
To express the things I think?


Every page I tried my best to think of something to contest
With inside jokes and other folks could have much more to say.


Dear _______, this envelope will represent my heart.
I'll seal it, send it off and wish it luck with it's depart.
This stamp will be every action that carry my affection
Across the air, the land, and sea.
Should I trust the postage due
To deliver my heart to you?

Every page I tried my best to think of something to contest
With inside joke and other folks could have much more to say
Every page I tried my best to fill with something to contest
With inside jokes and other folks could have much more to say

Give you all I can
Flower and a hand
I hope this helps you see
Signed, Sincerely me.
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"him" [Jun. 12th, 2005|10:06 pm]
drunkxdesire
[mood |confusedconfused]
[music |untitled-simple plan]

yes. there is a "him". a very special "him". you see, as i've told you all before....i'm afraid of getting hurt again. i can't help but to like this kid tho. he's such a sweet heart. he's the cutest thing. so the story...? i told him i liked him, he replied mutual, and we decided to be friends and see what happens. it's a good idea, i mean it was goin wicked fast, and we need a foundation. so yeah, that's all i'm sayin for now. some things are best kept secret. i don't even kno if i should've kept this secret. All i can say is he's teaching me a lot, and i'm glad i met him.

here's a song a friend of mine who's goin thru the same thing found...
here's how i feel....



~You promised me starry night skies
They just remind me of your shining bright eyes
I'm missing your voice at night time
Sepa-separation see-seems a sad crime

But don't, don't, don't, think think think I forgot you you you
Are are are oh so sweet I, I, I, I know

If only you were here
Things would be more magical
If I was there
Right now would be more radical
You're so not near
I'm wishing i could place a call
And feel closer to you, oh

Miles of air and road and land
Separate me from all my plans
We're havin' havin' havin' havin' fun
Something something tells me I miss someone

But I hope, hope, hope, you didn't forget me
I couldn't forget you
The whole time I always knew, I knew

If only you were here
Things would be more magical
If I was there
Right now would be more radical
You're so not near
I'm wishing i could place a call
And feel closer to you, oh

Say that you're into me
Let me know how it will be
If you don't know just say so
I'll wait 'till the perfect time
Think of all the perfect lines
I'll make sure if I let you know

We've got movies on our list to see
Things to do, just you and me
Calls to make from here and there and back
We've got fun to have and days to spend
Songs to sing or just pretend
Listen now let's keep things right on track

Say that you're into me
Let me know how it will be
If you don't know just say so
I'll wait 'till the perfect time
Think of all the perfect lines
I'll make sure if I let you know

good night...
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i'm so grateful [Jun. 12th, 2005|09:58 pm]
drunkxdesire
hi.

my name is sofia.

my favorite colors are, red, blue, and green.

i have friends.

i have a family.

i have a crush<3;).

i have a best friend.

i have an education.

i have a house.

i have food.

i may not have freedom, but with all this...who needs that?.
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(no subject) [Jun. 7th, 2005|01:39 pm]
drunkxdesire
A FEW PIECES OF “The Used”’s songs

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

Now all those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today ive wasted away for today is on my mind

Left the only worries I had in my hands
Away from the light in my eyes
Holding tight and try not to hide how i feel

MY FAVORITE QUOTE:
the singer finished singing and she's walking out
The singer sheds a tear, her fear of falling out
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and I cried

…..
Whoa Whoa Whoa Whoa
I think you could make me girl
Could make me and take my life
I know you could break me girl
Take all of me
All of me, yeah hey

Wake up
My love
Never thought you'd make me, break me
Now I'm up from below
Such a brilliant star you are

suprise me im looking out looking out
suprise me you jump back up on to your feet somehow
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Confusion [Jun. 6th, 2005|09:37 pm]
drunkxdesire
[mood |confusedconfused]
[music |playing guitar....blink 182]

i'm so lost.
so confused.
i only want one thing right now.
that's all i ask for.
someone to give me a chance.
someone to care.
more than a friend.
i don't know, i'm so lost.
please help me.
take my hand.
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(no subject) [Jun. 2nd, 2005|01:19 pm]
drunkxdesire
[mood |nervousoverwhelmed]
[music |air conditioner]

hey. yeah, yesterday i was in a lil accident. the car i drive is now ruined. it's drivable, but the hood is crushed up so i can't fully see the road, and the engine is exposed.i hope it doesn't mess up the engine. anyways, i have to pay $500 for it, and i don't know how i'm getting the money. i mean, i have a job, but i JUST started, and i need to pay for my car insurance and everything else. (btw, i work at Mc Donalds, feel free to visit). but yeah, i dunno, i've been feelin alone latley. i mean, i have great friends, but sometimes they're not there when i need them. today imade a new friend, and they helped me out, it's good to be able to talk to someone. i feel like i let a lot out, or at least what was bothering me. anyways, i have to pick my brother up today, and i hope i'll make it to graduation. i'm still not allowed online yet at home(hence why i'm doing this in school). i'm grounded, broke, in debt, and alone. not friend-wise. but gy\uy-wise. i ge\uess i'm just lookin for someone. i mean, i've been so lonley so long, and looking so long, that i almost wanna give up. i dunno, maybe if i do give up, they'll just show up. i dunno, my mind is all scattered, so i can't htink straight. i wanna move to another town, but not leave myf riends. i just made so many new and great friendships this year, that i don't wanna loose them. i need to go now, bu i'll hopefully write more later.ciao.

ps: i'm trying to write a song but i'm blocked....help!


luv always, ~Sofia
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All gave some, Some gave all [May. 31st, 2005|12:38 pm]
drunkxdesire
[mood |blanknumb...]
[music |silence...]

Memorial day. i couldn't put an entry in, so i'm putting it in now.

i lost two friends in this war in Iraq.
i have a good 5 friends out in Iraq and Afganistan now.
what are they fighting for?
freedom, i don't think so.
independance, nope.
they're fighting becasue a stupid president brought a war upon a country for the stupidest reasons, and brought many familes to tears at the news that they're son or daughter is dead.
One of those friends were my brother.
Not by blood, but by spirit.
He had great spirit.
I saw the memorial day concert in DC on TV, sunday.
i don't think i've ever cried that much in my life.
i hate war.
i hate loosing soldiers for no cause.
I'm glad John died doing what he wanted to do all his life.
but i'm also upset his familyhad to loose a son so young.
I sobbed
i watched it alone, and i cried so hard i couldn't breathe.
how am i gonna spend a nother memorial day w/ out him?

this song is dedicated to all tose who dies in any war.

~"All gave some, some gave all"


I knew a man called him GI-Joe
Few folks even knew his name
But a hero was he
Left a boy, came back a man
Still many just don't understand
About the reasons we are free

I can't forget the look in his eyes
Or the tears he cries
As he said these words to me

All gave some and some gave all
And some stood through for the red, white and blue
And some had to fall
And if you ever think of me
Think of all your liberties and recall
Some gave all

Now "GI-joe" is no longer here
But his words are oh so clear
As they echo through out our land
For all his friends who gave us all
Who stood the ground and took the fall
To help their fellow man

Love your country and live with pride
And don't forget those who died America can't you see

All gave some and some gave all
And some stood through for the red, white and blue
And some had to fall
And if you ever think of me
Think of all your liberties and recall
Some gave all

And if you ever think of me
Think of all your liberties and recall, yes recall
Some gave all

Some gave all

I miss you John.<3
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